Wow. It’s been awhile… hey again!
Life has changed quite a bit since the last time I wrote on here. But since this is more of where I keep my thoughts and less of a day by day travel log, we’ll save that stuff for another time and place.
Lately, I have been thinking a lot about being authentic.
If I knew what was coming, or what could be…would I change what I am doing?
After a conversation I had a few weeks ago about really figuring out exactly WHAT I want, I haven’t been able to think of much else.
Weird how questions like that take over just a little ;)
The real problem lies in a decision. Yeah it is great to have free agency… but what about when you have two or three equally GOOD choices??
As I’ve swayed back and forth between the options, it has ultimately come down to living with authenticity. Living my truth. Being unapologetically ME.
The thing about agency is that everyone can tell you what to do, but it is ultimately up to you to decide. As I’ve prayed for clarity of mind and the ability to choose the path that will take me where my Heavenly Father most needs me, I’ve accepted that He isn’t going to make the choice for me.
But why? Wouldn’t that make things so much easier? Wouldn’t everything work out better if we had an instruction manual to follow step-by-step?
Guess what…? He TRUSTS you. Yes, you. He knows that whatever you decide, it is worth the challenges that might come up because you will be able to learn and grow from them. Even more than that, He trusts that you will find Him, that you will reach out to Him no matter what path you take.
And when you do? He’ll be there. Waiting for you and beyond thrilled that once again you turned to Him.
So as I make these decisions, I am just focusing on which one is most true to who I want to become. What I want to do with my life and dreams. And making sure that whichever path I settle on, that I know exactly how to get ahold of my best friend and advocate if something doesn’t work out perfectly (because nothing ever does).
Even if the journey isn’t perfect, there is still so much beauty to be found. All you have to do is live and appreciate the path while you are on it.
Whether that means traveling the world, taking a new job, getting an education, making friends, or falling in love, if you are authentic, only good will come from it.
That doesn’t mean your new job will be the best salary you’ve ever earned, or that the other person will love you back. But it will mean that you are living fully. Without restraints. Without regret.
Never let a day go by where you could have said or done something but instead you chickened out because of fear. Fear of disappointment. Fear of rejection. Fear of the unknown. Whatever your reason is, don’t let it win…. That isn’t living. Do more than just exist.
“Life is either a daring adventure or nothing at all.”
So there’s your challenge. Go live. Go love. Go places. Just do something!
XOXO – Heath