In a recent discussion with a friend, he asked a serious personal question. “Have you ever had a blog?”
I know what you are thinking. How is that personal? But to me, it is. One day back in 9th grade English, a deep realization hit me that changed everything. I discovered my love of writing. It had a way of opening doors to never-ending opportunities. Mrs. Greenwell encouraged me, pushing my thoughts further than I imagined possible. And then something altered my vision.
Yes, I once became a bloggist (one who blogs)….trust me it’s a word. I made it up. But did I share my words? Duh, of course I didn’t!!! I made a private account and maybe wrote 12 posts total over a period of four years. So, clearly, I started another journal. If anybody knows me like I do, I am miserable at keeping journals. I just can’t keep going with them.
So…what’s my point?! What affected the course of my writing?
FEAR.
What a puny little word to hold so much power over all of our heads and hearts.
Who would want to read anything I have to say? What difference will it make? I don’t have anything influential or useful to say that hasn’t been said by someone else. That’s right. I was a wimp. I lacked the courage to be ME. But not today.
Today is new. There may be chaos and rubble spread around my past…and possibly even in my future.
But today, I remembered who I am. More importantly, I took a moment to visualize who I can become. Welcome to my journey in finding ME.
XOXO – Heath
